“Silence requires the discipline to recognize the urge to get up and go again as a temptation to look elsewhere for what is close at hand. It offers the freedom to stroll in your own inner yard, and to rake up the leaves there and clear the paths so you can easily find the way to your heart. Perhaps there will be much fear and uncertainty when you first come upon the “unfamiliar terrain”, but slowly and surely you will discover an order and familiarity which deepens your longing to stay home…whenever you come upon this silence, it seems as though you have received a gift, one which is “promising” in the true sense of the word. It promises new life. It is the silence of peace and prayer, because it brings you back to the One who is leading you.” – Henri Nouwen
“The good and the wise lead quiet lives.” -Eurpides
I haven’t had much to say the last several weeks.
I think that this is a good thing.
I have been trying to put into practice simplifying and quieting my life. My inner life is noisy and as I focus on my physical health I am more and more aware how much that relies on my emotional well-being.
I have “unplugged” from unnecessary distractions indefinitely and so far it has been surprisingly refreshing. I plan to do more “unplugging” soon. I’ve had a pretty productive month, too, if I do say so. I have had energy to revisit some parts of my life that I have neglected for a long time. It has been a good experience so far.
At some point, I will want to engage with people I am not instantly connected to anymore thru the handy-dandy interwebs, and I will. Maybe the old-fashioned pen and paper way, or *gasp* call them up and meet for a cup of tea. Just not yet. I am enjoying my self-proclaimed solitude and I don’t feel like I need to explain myself to anyone.
Oh, there’s one more thing. I quit coffee.
This was a big deal, but I knew that I had to do it. Caffeine is a major adrenal drainer and, well, I have basically survived on it for years now. I took a few days to withdraw, switched to green tea for a couple of days, but I have been “off the juice” for about 3 weeks now.
Is it awesome? NO.
Do I crave it every day? YES! SI! OUI! JA! HAI! DA!
Are we clear?
Next week I have my first appointment with Joanie since August. I have several things I want to discuss with her and I will cover them here after my appointment.